Sytem Crash Report - Who am I

 How amazing is it to speak with an animal. Try favorite bird is a master of communication. It may not know what it says but his mood inspires his language. Horses talk differently. They talk with their bodylanguage in a way I find reassuring. I know exactly how to move in order to get close to my mare. Like a bodylanguage code. If I misstep she shys. If she is scared I need to be brave. I need to lead when she backs up. Thats what she expects of me. Imagine I would jump at a moving object. All hell would break loose for her. Our trust is so well established that she doesnt even mind the new years fireworks any more. She knows it happens once a year and wel all go out to soothe them. BUt what is cost? Frieda loved fireworks the first. year. When she was little and we kept her by our sides. She is utterly terrified of them now. Because the second year we left her to care for the horse. Thinking she would be fin like the year before. It traumatized her beyond imagination. Alll the love gone. SHooting. It was a Warzone and her family left her behind. It is only now that I realize my immense stupitity. Now that I have been in her plave. Thinking the world was run by dark pedophile agencies who sexuallly abuse and traffick children. All of this exists. I know that. It is no segment of imagination. An evil world coexists but it lies hidden in panic to be discovered. The world though is still and will ever be run by love. Mothers love and Fathers love for their children. They are our watch dogs, our cats, our owls and rats and most of all our foxes. My mom is a tiny hamster, and I am yet undecided. Will I be a Stallion or A Fochs. A rat or a Beo. I just want to one thing. A highly evolved human being that doesnt seeek satisfaction at the expense or exploitation of others. I am DRACO.I AM TOM. I AM HAGRID. I AM THE LITTLE PRINCES HAystack. I AM POCAHONTAS GRANDMOTHER. I AM ALOT OF THINGS. BUT MOST of ALL I AM A POET AND A PHYSICIAN AND I LOVE NATURE and most of all I love my mom and my brothers and my family.  I hate to put them through this. I am my moms worst fear